|and refried eggs and refried beans|
It looks like this tiny, dusty, spider-filled corner of the Internet has more dust and spiders than previously thought. I’m working on a couple of things and sh#t’s just been piling up lately so… you get an encore presentation today.
This is part of a post from 2009 (ah, nostalgia). At the time, my local pool room decided to start a small women’s 8-ball tournament every other week. I won the first two.
I had forgotten about this post (I’ve written so much crap over the years), but it was relevant to some current events I was involved in. Some of you long-suffering readers may still find it amusing and the new readers may… also find it amusing.
|a highly indecent proposal|
|originally published in 2009|
Since I have decided to stay local in regards to pool for this month, the only tournament have played in so far and will be able to play in for the time being, are local tournaments.
If you have been keeping up with the recent posts, you may remember that I am now regularly playing in a local ladies’ eight-ball tournament. It is a brand-new tournament, held every other week, and the fields have so far been small. It is a race to 2 on the winner’s side, race to 1 on the loser’s side, loser breaks, with a low entry fee. The inaugural tournament had a nice-sized field — thirteen players total, I believe. The second tournament had less players — about nine or ten. Mind you there are some STRONG women players in this city (professional speed), but for some reason, they didn’t come to these first two tournaments. As a result, I was lucky enough to win both.
Earlier this week, an interesting message was tactfully (or, perhaps, untactfully) relayed to me from another pool room regular via one of my friends. My friend told me about the conversation and the included message. It went something like this:
“So, I see she’s won the tournament twice now.”
“Yes, she has.”
“You know, you’d better tell her to take it easy.”
“Take it easy? What do you mean?”
“You know, take a week off or something.”
“What do you mean ‘take a week off’?”
“You know, maybe she shouldn’t play the next one. Let someone else win for a change.”
“Why should she do that?”
“If she doesn’t, the girls will stop showing up because they can’t win.”
You know, I was thinking I wouldn’t have anything to talk/discuss/rant about this week — but damn — the Pool and Blog Gods must be in collusion to make sure I’m never bored or at a loss for conversation.
First, I found this exchange to be rather alarmist on the part of the individual concerned with the fragile hearts of the other women players. Let’s face it: me winning this tournament is hardly anything to get this man’s panties in a bunch. This is not a professional tournament. It is not even a regional tournament. Hell, it is not even a weekly tournament yet. It’s a fledgling tournament that hopes to give women players a venue for competition and enjoyment amongst themselves.
Second, this is a small tournament and I have only won it twice. That is hardly a sign of domination. The fields were small and I will say that out of all the players, in both cases, I had the best chance to win it.
Third, I won the tournaments because I was, most likely, the best player present on that day. Let me now analyze why I was “the best player present”. This analysis shall be addressed to the pool room regular who thought I should “take it easy”, but that doesn’t mean the rest of you can’t come along for the ride, err — rant.
Mr. Tinman — for that is what I shall call you as you remind me so much of that Wizard Of Oz character and his litany of “If I only had a heart.” And, indeed, sir, IF YOU ONLY HAD A GODDAM HEART you might see the injustice of what it is you ask of me.
Mr. Tinman, you know me quite well.
Perhaps I should rephrase that, for you obviously don’t know me well enough to not make asinine statements, but you do know me well enough to know that you shouldn’t make those asinine statements to my face, but rather employ the services of an intermediary. Good call. I shall say then, that you are (or should be) well-acquainted with my pool persona as you have seen me regularly at this pool room from the first day I set foot in here, perhaps ten years ago.
You have watched my game progress from horrendous-hack-with-a-glittery-Cuetec to tolerable-hack-with-a-variety-of-excellent-custom-cues. That’s ten f#cking years you’ve watched me so you ought to have noted the ever-so-slight progress in my game and the increasing levels of my determination to become the best in the world.
Oh, I am sorry.
It just occured to me that you may not have been paying attention to my game as I have heard, on more than one occasion, your remarks upon my rear end and other physical attributes. While your remarks may have been complimentary, they do not exonerate you of the guilt of being a f#cking disgusting pervert.
But, I digress.
Let me then, assume that you have not kept up to date with my progress in pool since you are otherwise engrossed in how well my pants show off my backside. Allow me to enlighten you. My game has improved quite a bit since I first began playing a decade ago. I regret that yours has not. Although you practice everyday and you even occasionally take the one-pocket race-to-three for $10 flutter (how does your heart stand the strain of so high a wager — oh wait — you DON’T HAVE ONE), I must say your game has gone stale. The only difference I have seen in you and your game is the simultaneous recession of your hairline and the advancement of your nose- and ear-hairs.
But, I digress.
As of this moment, I am no champion. I am not a professional player. I would not even be considered a top regional player. I am, however, incredibly dedicated to my cause and my dedication pays off every now and then when I have a great practice session, I win a tough match, or I happen to win a small tournament such as the one that has caused you such agitation. You would save these beginning lady players from suffering the feelings of defeat and inadequacy. You would have me refrain from playing so that they may know what it is like to win a few dollars.
I ask you, who would save me from the same?
Have you not considered what it has cost me to even rise to my current level of mediocrity?
I have paid tens of thousands of dollars in table time. I have paid almost as many thousands to travel as cheaply as possible to as many tournaments as I can possibly go to without going broke or being fired. I have taken public transit for hours and for hundreds of mile each week to play in leagues and to go local tournaments as well as major ones. When there are no buses, I have walked many miles. I have walked in desert heat and I have walked in freezing cold — often while carrying my luggage. I have done all that, sometimes, to go to tournaments where I go two-and-out. I have been beaten, blitzed, and blanked in countless matches. Sometimes, my opponents were professionals — and I wasn’t supposed to win. Sometimes, I was supposed to win — but I lost. And all those losses were my own fault. And after I had lost, there was no one to comfort me — no one to tell those big, bad players to “take a week off”. I had to sit there and know that I had fallen short on skill, on mental toughness, and that I had been, totally and utterly, beat.
When I look at all the money and effort spent for nothing more than heartbreak, I sometimes become depressed and disillusioned — but never discouraged. I go back, and I practice. I go back, and I work. It is then only a question of time before I have enough barrels to fire again in a bid for glory and excellence.
Am I still digressing?
I don’t know and I don’t give a sh#t.
There is a reason why I won those two tournaments and that reason is that I was the best player there that day. I have paid my f#cking dues, you f#cking moron, and now, I am enjoying the fruits of my labor. These women are beginners and I know what it is like to be in their shoes (heels and all, of course). I was a beginner once, and I suffered defeat after defeat after defeat. But then, there came a day when I lost a little less, when I went one-and-two in a tournament. More practice and soon, I could go two-and-two. But, it will take eons before I might consistently win tournaments and not just random tournaments, but the world-level tournaments I aspire to play in.
The other players in this tournament, as nice as they are, as sweet as they are, and as much as you love staring at their butts and boobs — are still paying their dues to this game. I wager that, even all together, they have not spent half of what I have already spent, whether it be time, money, or life. Even if I were to sit out and one of those girls won, would it mean she has now become an elite player, a champion? If yes, a champion of what? A zip code? A city block? An insignificant pool room? I suppose it depends on perspective, but how much is that really worth? And how long will it be before another high-level player comes to this tournament and wins it? What will you do? Ask her to sit out as well?
You are not helping these beginners become champions, if that is your intent. Let me relate a small anecdote to you.
Once, back in the glory days of my Cuetec, I went to play in a race-to-one eight-ball tournament at a bar. When I arrived, I found a lady there practicing on one of the tables. She was there for the tournament and asked me if I wanted to warm up by playing a few racks with her. We began to play. We were both terrible players, but I was slightly better and won the majority of the games. When we stopped for a break, this is the conversation we had:
“So, you must be a pro or something.”
“What? A pro? Oh HELL no. I’m not even a considered a good amateur player.”
“Uh, no. I wish I was, but I’m not. There’s tons of good women players out there.”
“Like how many.”
“Well, a lot.”
“I mean, like, in this city.”
“I don’t know how many women play pool in this city, but there are at least four or five women professionals. There’s probably a lot of women who are almost professionals too, so — I guess I could be really generous to myself and say there are only 20 women who would totally kick my butt.”
She looked shocked and there was a silence between us. “And that’s just this city.”
“Just this city, yes.”
She considered this. “What about in the state?”
“Oh, there must be many more. I know of at least ten women in the Bay Area that play extremely well.”
She considered this as well. “So… what do you think… about… the whole… country?”
“Well, let’s see. California is a really big state, so maybe we have more pool players. I guess if there were only ten women in each state — and I’m really sure there’s a lot more than that — that’s still, what, like at least another four-hundred and ninety players that are ahead of me? That’s probably about right. And then there’s the rest of the world, too. A lot of Asian and European players are really good.”
She seemed troubled by this statistic, as unscientific as it was, and she fell silent for the remainder of the evening. The tournament started and she went two-and-out and left almost immediately after. I thought nothing of this for several weeks until I found out through a mutual acquaintance who she was.
This lady had thought herself ready to play on the women’s professional tour. I had, inadvertently, given her a fairly harsh dose of reality. I don’t know what happened to her dreams of professional pool after that, but I do know this same lady continued to play for at least several years. Had she quit the game because of my (purely unscientific) statistics, I should not feel sorry at all. I had only told her what I thought it took to become a champion at this game and if she was daunted by or unwilling to do the amount of work required to achieve that goal, she would never become a champion, anyway.
And so, Mr. Tinman, you are encouraging a false sense of excellence amongst these players if you ask me to refrain from playing.
Perhaps that is not such a bad thing — maybe that is all they aspire to in their billiards existence. Perhaps all they really want is to be the best in their circle of friends. Perhaps they favor the idea of a world where there are no winners and losers, nobody keeps score, and everyone gets a shiny f#cking trophy at the end of the season. Perhaps, in their eyes, finishing second in a tournament of only two players would be something to boast about. It is not so with me.
Until they bar me from this tournament, I will continue to play. I have already let the organizers know that I would be more than willing to spot the players games on the wire, at their discretion. I wouldn’t mind this at all. It would only make me a tougher player and, in the end, I would probably still win a good portion of the time.
It is no surprise that there are only a few top players and a sh#tload of average players. Those that rise to the top work harder and sacrifice more than those below them. I bet you think it is awfully petty of me to play in this tournament and win the few dollars. I don’t think so. I have done the work. I have made the sacrifices. I have paid the price for success and I will pay the price to stay successful. I don’t know how many of these beginning players will become champions but they need to understand that they, too, must work for those victories. No one is going to give it to them. They will lose and lose and lose, but if they can stay tough and work hard, they will eventually win. I know my eloquence on this subject is limited and it is quite possible that you won’t listen to a chick, so allow me to offer you the following quote from none other than that manly-man movie, Rocky Balboa:
You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you’re worth, go out and get what you’re worth! But you gotta be willing to take the hits.
Before you can win, you must be willing to lose.
It is highly improbable, but possible, that this tournament will fade into the sunset because I happened to win it again. This is your chief fear (for then you would have no one to ogle except ugly old men such as yourself) and it is not without its miniscule merit. If it happens, then we know none of those players were cut out to be competitors and, if they can’t take the hits — like I had to — they don’t deserve to win. I can’t win this tournament forever, but you can bet your sorry rusty ass that I will do my damnedest to try.
So, Mr. Tinman, I hope you now have an inkling of how much I have invested in this game. If you do, you must agree that the $100 or so I have won from this tournament is a REALLY SH#TTY rate of return for what I have invested in it. I don’t even keep my winnings — I give that money right back to the pool room in the form of paying for table time. This, in turn, contributes to the pool room’s economic well-being. The pool room’s economic well-being is surely in your interest because where else would you go to be your pervy self while pontificating with false authority about sh#t you are completely unqualified to comment upon?
Thank you for listening and now you may go die in a fire.
I know you won’t die of a heart attack.
Not much has changed.
Tinman is still Tinman and I’m still a psychotic bitch that won’t lose on purpose to make others feel better. I’ve since spent even more money on this game that has a terrible ROI. I still haven’t learned there’s no pot of gold at the end of the pool-ball rainbow.
The tournament I refer to in the post eventually ended, but not due to my winning or lack of players. The organizers simply got too busy to run things and the room owner preferred to keep the tables free to rent (as opposed to using them for tournaments).
I have at least one tournament coming up which will require a bit of travel, so I predict a ceramics raffle in the very near future. If ceramics are not your thing, my Etsy store still has keychains that look great on cue cases.
|I’ve resurrrected my online shirt store as well.|
|I added The Venn of Billiards for the geeky scientist in you (or your friends)…|
|…as well as a new design, KEEP CALM and SLOP IT THREE RAILS.|
|Because that is why we all love/hate nine-ball, right?|
|(It is also my actual plan when looking at situations I have no idea how to handle — in pool as well as life.)|
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